Lonely soul

artemisia · Posted: Mon 17:54, 21 Mar 2011 Post subject: Lonely soul

a lonely old man and left.
she eventually did not go through this cold winter, no one has thought of in a morning quietly passed away at the age of 94 years. that news of her death, I eagerly went to the county more than fifty kilometers outside the small mountain village to see her one last time, gave her final journey. She is serene, quietly lying on the cold floor, no longer feel cold , and need not undergo the next round of heat and wind and rain, and the human world confront well-being of yin and yang, the two separated from her, no longer relevant.
I knew this day was to come sooner or later. 94 years of age, in terms of human life, not short-term, fully described as dead. But I do not know why, I still feel a bit sudden, I feel she should stay for some time, especially when you see the way she really silent, the wave of sorrow and grief to come to my mind can not stop.
authorities ten years ago I came to work, she has been nearly eight years late, retired , has lived in the building, and adjacent to my office. This surprised me somewhat, retired home to office, this situation further difficulties in the cadres is rare. Also did not expect is that ten years later, that her absence that would be me . Think of the years seen and heard bits and pieces of her life, a brand of the times with some of the shadow gradually clear.
She was born in an era of suffering, life gets tough in the whole country, she led a hard life. She said the party veering to save her, is the organization's education and care, her political beliefs into a forged unusually strong person. And she also lives in a rapidly changing, rapidly changing era of continuous improvement in the lives of the masses, she is still living a life close to caustic and even cruel. Every day, Dun Dun are steamed rice to eat, plus up to a dish of pickled vegetables, and meat never detached. Is definitely wearing blue denim dress , and very thin, whether it is summer heat of the summer, or the north wind blowing in the winter, anyway, so a few pieces of clothing on the body. Summer can still be, but is a point of smelly, and in winter , I always feel her whole body shiver. Is she you cold, she will definitely waved their hands: not cold, not cold, not cold [link widoczny dla zalogowanych], I cold? Warm way to go. No money to deal with daily expenses is it? No, she is a wage income. Her money gone? Many people know he is paying the membership dues, the dues turned her life beyond the more than half of its total revenue. She therefore received numerous awards from national to local, all kinds of
infinite comfort to her heart, but also felt brilliant. She was most proud of is a recognition to Beijing to attend the Council, saw the In fact, the recognition of the province will be open, but she insisted that after many years opened in Beijing (As for this, the pride of the like, indescribable. Annual to the party, said today the party's daughter to a birthday party arrived. Organization Department is responsible for the reception of her comrades that you do not turn in accordance with the standard amount of dues so much, or to improve your own life bar. But she did not listen [link widoczny dla zalogowanych], to pay her according to their own standards.
her work, is undoubtedly a serious attitude to people , place of work in the country. Retired, and inconvenience to do other things, can only wear hats every day, pick up the broom, cleaning the streets, she became the county seat and public toilets in many remote corners of the liquidators. Between the bedroom back to that cold, in the dim light, she picked up the paper to produce more than a dozen million envelopes, standard envelopes to promote before the authorities do have a lot of convenience. Encounter people and things could not understand, she scolded , scolded loudly, cursing passersby, scold cadres criticize the leadership, she dare to scold anyone, but they are never scolded organizations, which met with her jokes, and said the party is not good, she'll face red from him anxious. Often in the morning four or five o'clock she would get up, wake up first thing is to open the windows for the office workers to stay dry opposite the Red House, singing revolutionary songs, the whole office building is always welcome in advance to the beginning of a new day.
her life did not marry, no children below the knee, in the countryside after retirement, leading nowhere to go see her, put her to the authorities to pension arrangements. The implementation of the last century, the national housing reform policy of the nineties, she had a chance to spend very little money to buy a set of housing reform, but she gave up, has been living in a ten square meters of office. Her authority is concerned about the children of workers of dry years ago, her own room to do the nursery, and volunteers from the She always said the kids dry workers as the Brother died at home, she did not go to mourn, usually see her nephew, she does not welcome. She said that she was the daughter of the party, all belonging to her party, the future life of the party arrangements, do not worry about relatives. But the dramatic ending, in the death of the first five years, when she was frail, disoriented, she was the nephew of her family to live in the home. This time, she is willing to eat meat, fish willing to eat, what good things are willing to eat, she became a
may be highbrow, her life became more and more alone, she seemed unable to extricate themselves caught in a pit, in order to maintain the aura of overhead, and she insisted on suffering. Few people can understand what she did, more and more people do not agree with her, her indifference, and even despised her, everyone's eyes, she is a ridiculous fool, a crank. She became a real loner. But her character is too stubborn, too stubborn, in her view, she believes the purpose has not changed, the flag that her heart is still fluttering [link widoczny dla zalogowanych], and she fought for, so go its own way, stick to life. Because the spiritual power, she finally lived to 94 years. This world, how many people can live to her age it?
She often said she was like, Organization Thanksgiving, Thanksgiving party. So I think, an organization to have someone like her, it should be fortunate, regardless of the way her expression of faith is not the times, her soul never flying far away in the high, it is unmatched. From the moment his right hand held high, she honor their vows with action, she is Her life is too impoverished a bit basic necessities simply out of the question [link widoczny dla zalogowanych], spending her life and others may not pocket money, but she has a steadfast belief in and pursuit, and her blood is hot, the soul is noble, is happy happy. Her life is too lonely, and, ascetic silence lone camel, but in her mind, but it has accompanied hundreds of thousands of party members, she is not alone.
she was gone, the soul still stands.